Today I found out I wont be able to join the military! Due to the fact I have a loss of hearing in my left ear. Im trying so hard not to be pissed but I cant get the fact of how hard I worked to get in. I mean I was at 270 pounds when I decided that I was going to join, and I had to get down to 215 pounds to join. I worked so damn! hard to get that shit off! I mean I ran some days when my body felt like it would fall about, and still I keep running. Somedays I ran so far and so hard I puked 4 to 5 times and on the 5th time puking I feel to my knees cause I had no more strength, but I told myself this will be worth it, just think you wont have to run this hard in boot camp cause you are in better shape than they can hope to put you in. So I got up and forced myself to walk even though I knew I shouldn't. I mean how do you st there tell someone no when you seen yourself on how hard they pushed themselves to make better future for themselves.

All I done today was comment on a couple peoples art and listened to Elvis Presely music. When my mom came home and seen me sitting in my room just listening to Elvis she asked me what was wrong, cause anyone that knows me knows the only time I listen to Elvis at home is either when Im drawing or Im pissed. Which reminds me I have to appologize to her for blowing up on her. So guys it looks like your going to have me around after all.



All though I honestly dont know what the hell to do now.